December 19, 2014 "Our entire world is crashing down!"

Dec. 18-I can't even begin to say how I feel right now. Dr. Elton, the neurosurgeon, just left. He says that although we are 32 weeks gestation Rayden's head size is now as big as a 42 week baby. That's bigger than full term! He is extremely concerned about his skull collapsing on his brain which is a huge problem. He stated he wanted to take Rayden as early as next week and put in a programmable shunt so he can relieve the pressure slowly. That way the skull plates would close back up slowly and hopefully not overlap or collapse. That would be a HUGE surgery. He's not sure if he will have to do the shunt surgery the day of the c-section or if he can wait until the following day. They will more than likely leave in the breathing tube after surgery as well. What really upsets us the most though is that he can't guarantee brain development. He said he knows there is brain there but he doesn't even know how much!!! He says the fluid has been compressing his brain against his skull and we will just have to see if his brain will fill back up his head or not! WHAT??!! Oh God, isn't it miracle time yet?

Dec. 19-I didn't sleep very well at all. I cried and prayed all night. I actually curled up with Michael on the sofa in here just to calm down some. Dr. Casey came in this morning and said that they are going to give me 2 more steroid shots this weekend and probably take Rayden on Monday or Tuesday. He would let me know exactly which day this afternoon. He said he has been in an email chain with Dr. Goodnight and Dr. Elton and they would make a decision today. So much for waiting until the 30th... Please pray for Rayden. I'm so afraid.

If you would like to help support Rayden's you can order a t-shirt from www.booster.com/raydensreason. We had to redesign it.

December 18, 2014 "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas"

Santa and a few of his elves from the UNC Volunteer Association came to see us. They brought a therapy dog as well. One of them played the guitar as they all sang a Christmas carol to us. Santa gave us a teddy bear with a blue hat and scarf for Rayden.






Thanks Deneice and Jason for the Christmas tree with blue lights and the decorative penguin.  Thanks Nanny and Papa Strickland for the piano playing Santa. Our room is the most festive according to everyone who comes in...

Two beautiful ornaments to celebrate Rayden's arrival and first Christmas. Thanks Elizabeth, Brenda and Michael.

December 17, 2014 "Not again!"

Today one of the MFM (maternal fetal medicine) doctors did another ultrasound to see Rayden's ventricle sizes. She said his head was already larger than a full term baby's. Although his ventricle sizes were the same at 45mm and 35mm, she stated that they are excessively large and his head was lemon shaped. She showed us that she could only see minimal brain tissue around all that fluid. I responded by saying that once the shunt was placed it will be fine. She said "that remains to be seen." That CRUSHED me! I have never even let it enter my brain that Rayden may have brain damage. So I just keep telling myself over and over that she's NOT the brain surgeon. She tried to console Michael and me by holding my hand and saying, "I know this must be hard." I just wanted her to stop talking. When Michael wheeled me back upstairs he continuously told me not to let her comments get to me. But it is so hard. Holly told Maya about me being so upset so she came by and said she is going to ask Dr. Elton, the neurosurgeon, to come by and talk to us. I am trying to stay positive. I am trying to not get bogged down with negative thoughts. There's nothing we can do now anyway. I was sure by now that God would have reached down and stepped in and saved the day. God, please perform a miracle now and allow Rayden to have normal brain function, to beat the odds, to rewrite the book... "Though my heart is torn, I will praise you in this storm."

December 12, 2014 "Just hangin' out"

Dec. 10-Michael kidnapped me! He told the nurses we were going on a date. They thought it was so cute. He took me on a wheelchair ride down stairs. We went to Starbucks but I'm not a coffee drinker so I didn't want anything. We admired all the trees and went 'shopping' in the gift shop and the little drug store. We even went upstairs to see the Ronald McDonald Family Room. It was so good to get out. When we returned he told the lady he was "returning an unruly patient." They said they didn't want me back, haha! I really enjoyed our little 'date'.

Dec. 11-We had a visit from Barbara and Carmen tonight. It was so good to see them. They always make me smile. Barbara even brought my favorite toenail polish and painted my toes. Isn't she precious? They brought me some wonderful cards created from my 1st grade students. They are so sweet to think of me. They even brought us some flowers in a santa vase. So festive. Gretchin, who works for Dr. Elton the neurosurgeon, came in to talk to us about Rayden. She said they have been watching the baby's ventricles and are prepared to care for him when he's born. I mentioned that his vents were 43 and 35 thinking in the back of my mind that she would say 'Yes, but that's really not that bad.' But I was wrong. She actually replied in a calming voice, "Yes, they are huge." She also told us different things they could do to stabilize Rayden immediately instead of rushing him back to surgery. That was very interesting.

When everyone left Michael and I went back down stairs because the nurses told us there were some venders selling things. Of course, we didn't buy anything but it was fun just to get out of this room.

Dec. 12-Linda and Glenn brought our baby up here! He is finally finished with exams! We were so happy to see him. He even curled up in the bed with me to work on some shirts we are designing as a fund raiser for Rayden. Here is the link to the T-shirts to help support Rayden's medical cost. You can order a shirt or just donate using this website. https://www.booster.com/raydensreason

December 10, 2014 "So far so good"

Thursday, Dec. 4- Day 2-They moved us to a room with a view of the front of the hospital and a sofa for Michael to sleep better. The other room had a view of the side of the building and a pull out chair. I'm happy to report that all seems to be as stable as possible for now. We had a bad scare Friday afternoon, Dec. 5, when I started gushing fluid again, but even that has slowed down now. I'm still bleeding but they say it's alright. I've been poked a million times, but I don't mind.

The highlight of my day is when they put Rayden on the monitor so we can hear his heartbeat and watch for any contractions. I'm still on a LOT of antibiotics and medication but they did take the 3rd IV out. It's hard to sleep when they keep coming in to check on you, but it's getting better.

Michael hooked up the PS3 so we can watch Netflix. Hey, we gotta do something! He's been such a rock for me. I don't know what I would do without him here supporting me.

Michaels parents have been able to stay at the Ronald McDonald House. They say it is really nice there. They have brought me something from there everyday. (Socks, candy canes, flowers, cookies) I'm so thankful for their support as well.

Tuesday, Dec. 9- Day 7-I wasn't feeling good at all. I had a lot of stomach pain and nausea. Of course I started thinking this was labor and made it worse. They put me on the monitor and it showed no contractions. Dr. Casey came in and did another ultrasound (#16). He pointed out that Rayden is practicing breathing very well. He actually said he doesn't normally see that in babies this young. I'm so glad. He also showed us that Rayden had moved side to side. He is no longer butt down. Dr. Casey called it 'hammock style'. Maybe that's why I was hurting. Now that there is little to no fluid inside my uterus every time he moves it feels like someone is stretching my skin. I can't imagine how Rayden feels in there. I keep imagining him inside a sack with no air.

We've had a visitor just about every day and I can't begin to tell you how much that means to us. It also breaks up the monotony of the day! We appreciate all the phone calls, texts, visits, emails, facebook messages, and especially the prayers.

Thanks Brittany C. for decorating our room with my favorite characters and brightening up our day. Sweet little Jackson occupied our minds for a little while.

Wednesday, Dec. 10-Day 8- We are now officially 31 weeks! We have been here for a full week. Although it is boring, I pray we can stay just like this another 3 weeks.

December 5, 2014 "30 Week Ultrasound"

December 4th- What a long day!! At least I was able to sleep about 5 hours last night. Today Michael and I just sat around watching TV, and working on my blog. I'm so hot and he's freezing. It's normally the other way around, but its because of the steroid shots I've been taking. The food is actually pretty good here. The nurses have been wonderful. They come in and place the fetal monitor on my belly for about 30 min. twice a day. It is great to hear that he is doing alright and see that we are not having contractions. I also receive intravenous antibiotics every 6 hours along with my other medication. The doctors say that the goal of 34 weeks is because beyond that we run a high risk of infection and of course that's just not worth the risk to either of us. Besides, by that point he will have everything he needs to continue to develop in the NICU. So our prayer now is that we can go to Dec. 30, which is 34 weeks. The bleeding has slowed down a lot as well so hopefully we can just hang out! Maya has come to visit several times now. She is such a wonderful person and great resource to

help us through all of this. Holly, the lady who had fetal surgery the same day as me, came to visit as well. She is here until delivery too. It is good to have someone to go through this with. She was a valuable resource for me on Tuesday night when I was panicking because I couldn't get in touch with Dr. Goodnight. We got a beautiful bouquet of flowers today from my husbands company, Piedmont Natural Gas.

December 5th- Today we had our 15th ultrasound. Although my water broke on Tuesday the technician found two pockets of fluid measuring about 6 cm. That's really good news. She says he now weighs 4lbs 9 oz. That's even better news! Of course, he is still Frank Breech with both feet above his head. The only bad news we received was his ventricle sizes went up again. His right vent grew from 35mm to 43mm. His left vent grew from 25mm to 30mm. We are still waiting to speak with the NICU doctors and Dr. Elton about the shunt surgery.

We had a wonderful little visitor this morning. Becca Powell brought her son to see us. She is a remarkable mother of a spina bifida child, Huck. I have been speaking with her since before our fetal surgery. It was wonderful to finally meet her but especially little Huck. Although he was born at 29 weeks, he is perfect! Just what Michael and I needed today. He was walking around, kissing his mom, smiling, playing, and waving goodbye. Just absolutely adorable. It was so encouraging to us both. She brought us a sweet package of goodies including some premie clothes for Rayden.

December 2, 2014 "OH NO!!!!"

Well, things got a little rocky today. I had some lower abdominal pain about 11:00 am. I was unsure of what to make of it. I was able to breathe through it and it only lasted about 20 min. So I recorded it in my brain and went on throughout my day. Around 3:30 it happened again, but this time it was a bit stronger. So much so that I had tears in my eyes. This time I called Dr. Goodnight. He said without any bleeding or water leakage he really couldn't explain it. So, here again, I just recorded this away and went on. Michael came home as soon as I told him of the second pain attack so I was relieved that he was there just in case. Our friend, Angie Parker RN, came to visit around 5:00 pm. We ate a little dinner and were just visiting when all of a sudden I felt something leaking. When I stood up to go to the bathroom to check it out it just gushed everywhere. I placed my hand between my legs and my hand was immediately covered in BLOOD! I yelled, "Michael, I'm bleeding!" He and Angie came running! There was so much blood!! Angie called the hospital while Michael tried to get me cleaned up to go. We waited for the hospital to call us back for about 30 min. I gushed two more times before we just decided to leave about 7. We thought we were headed to UNC Chapel Hill. When we got in the car we noticed we didn't have enough gas to get there so we stopped to fuel up. In the car, Angie and I decided it might be best to go to Betsy Johnson Hospital to make sure this was not life threatening before we traveled 1 1/2 hours down the road.

Betsy Johnson rushed us straight upstairs to Labor and Delivery to get checked out. It took hours to get a transport to UNC because they had to do an ultrasound (#13), blood work, monitor baby, give me steroid shots, start an IV, give me fluids, etc. I was having small contractions about 16-24 min. apart. The nurses were so nice; always trying to calm me down. I just kept saying over and over that I HAD to get to Chapel Hill, and somebody call Dr. Goodnight! The doctor on call didn't seem to like that very well. He was actually a little rude telling me he could do the C-section there and transport the baby away. He also said that I should have went to Chapel Hill to start with if that's where I wanted to go. Attitude!! After they spoke with UNC he came back and decided to ambulance transport us to UNC about 11:00 pm. I'm so thankful that Angie was there with us. She kept us calm and called others to inform them of the situation. I have to believe that God placed her there at that particular time on purpose.

The ambulance ride seemed to take forever but we made it. The ambulance fellow was so great keeping me entertained and calm during the ride. Just about the time they got me in a bed at UNC I felt another gush. When they looked to see what it was they decided it might be amniotic fluid. I was so upset. Of course, they tested it, and did an exam. It was confirmed fluid and I am dilated 1cm. The tears started flowing again. I just kept saying over and over "It's too early! Get Dr. Goodnight!" Finally someone did call him but the funny thing is my contractions had stopped!! So they started me on some intravenous antibiotics and did another ultrasound (#14). There is only a small amount of fluid left inside! They say that as long as I am not contracting then we can just sit and wait. What a long night!! I didn't sleep a wink.

December 3, 2014-Dr. Goodnight came in about 9:30 am. He stated that the pain and blood I was having yesterday must have been the membrane separating from the uterus. This apparently happens sometimes due to the fetal surgery. I've also been told over and over that the NICU is full and they would have to send Rayden somewhere else. Dr. Goodnight quickly and adamantly stated that he would NOT be going anywhere!!! This was such a relief! He also stated that as long as I am not contracting and the bleeding slows down our new goal is 34 weeks. I am now 30 weeks. Problem is, I cannot leave the hospital! We spoke about emergency C-section procedures and epidural C-section procedures.

I have been in Labor and Delivery on the 4th floor, but tonight they moved me to the 3rd floor. This is more of an observation floor. Although the rooms are a lot smaller, they do have much more comfortable beds.

I am really scared and worried about being strong enough to do this! God, please help me to be strong enough to handle this. I know I don't have to though, because He is strong when I am weak. Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." A friend of mine, Holly Pope, recently directed me to a song that has been playing over and over in my head today. Strong Enough by Matthew West. It is now my new motto.

November 26, 2014 "I saw God today"

"I saw God today." A comment I've heard spoken from so many people. They say this in reference to a newborn child, the beauty of nature, etc. The fingerprints of God. Well, today I saw it in the face of a 10 year old little girl. Someone I've never met, seen before, or even heard of. She wanted to do something special to commemorate her tenth birthday. Most children have a party, celebration, sleep over, etc. But not Molly Barefoot. She listened to the voice of God speaking to her. She told her parents she wanted to raise money for Rayden's family. Someone she didn't know! She organized a fund raiser at her school, Erwin Elementary. "A Penny War for Rayden." They raised $456 in change!! When she went to the bank to exchange for cash, someone at the change machine asked her why she had so much. She shared Rayden's story and they donated as well, even though they seemed to be in need themselves. She had two friends spend the night with her. They went to You Define Art in Smithfield to paint a cross to present to us as well. When she shared Rayden's story with them they donated the cross. It's just so amazing when I sit and think of how many lives this story has touched through the obedience of one 10 year old little girl. All the children at her school, the person at the bank, the owners of the paint shop, and I'm sure these people told their families, etc. When it was all said and done, Molly had raised $500 for Rayden.

Molly's family came over to present us with the donation and the cross. I just couldn't believe it! I am so proud of her willingness to be obedient to God and in awe at the selfLESSness of a 10 year old little girl!! God is still working in our lives and I, like so many now, can't wait to see Rayden's reason for being here. What is his purpose? I can already see that God is using him and he's not even born yet! I hope this story will inspire others to turn to Him, and be obedient to His call.



The scripture reference at the bottom of the cross is Jeremiah 1:5. Although I have heard this scripture, and read this story numerous times in my life, it has new meaning today. Reading even further in the scripture God is telling Jeremiah, even though he is a child, to do as He commands. This seems to speak reference to Molly being obedient to God's call. (At least it does for me anyway.)

November 26, 2014 "29 Week Ultrasound"

Today was our 12th ultrasound. I really enjoy being able to see Rayden each week. This week was even more special because our other two sons, Justin and Alex, were able to attend the doctor visit. This was their first ultrasound ever! So educational for future fathers! They seemed amazed with the whole experience. I think they really enjoyed seeing Rayden. Our ultrasound technician, Steve, was amazing as always. He showed us how Rayden now has eyelids. He was opening and shutting his eyes like he was winking at us. So adorable!! He was also moving his bottom lip back and forth like he was grinding his teeth, even though he doesn't have any of course. Alex use to grind his teeth as a child so that was a cute connection he quickly made.

Justin and Alex can always make me smile. They are so crazy. They wanted to take a picture with their baby brother. It's not a very good picture but we didn't have a lot of time to perfect it. I guess this could be Rayden's first selfie, haha!

The ultrasound technicians always have a hard time seeing Rayden's face because he hasn't really moved from the same place. He presses his face into the placenta. Steve didn't give up though. He showed us that Rayden has one foot in his face, almost eating his toes! The other foot was tucked under his bottom. Although this picture looks a little blurry you can see his foot just above his nose.

As Steve was measuring Rayden's ventricles he said the third one was now dilated as well. That, of course, concerned me. He quickly calmed me down by saying it was "to be expected". This vent is in the center of his head. When they perform the shunt surgery at birth it will drain as well. The diagram helps explain. There are two lateral ventricles, left and right. These are the two they are measuring every week. The third vent is in the center and the fourth they can't see on ultrasound. Rayden's ventricles did not change much. The left grew from 24mm to 25mm. The right actually went down from 37mm to 35mm. Dr. Goodnight says this is stable, at least not really growing any. I've come to realize that a shunt is not the enemy. It is a life saving devise that we are trying to except.
Next doctor appointment is December 5th.

November 21, 2014 Post-Op Doctor Visit # 4

Today was our 4th post-op doctor's appointment. We, as always, go into these appointments with such anticipation and hope that things have changed. This visit was no different than any other. Rayden's movements, breathing, etc. were great. He is still breech, and his feet are once again back over his head. His heartbeat was 141bpm. His ventricles have grown again! The left grew from 23mm to 24mm. The right grew from 36mm to 37mm. Just to put it into perspective for you 8-10mm is considered normal. 10-12mm is mildly enlarged or elevated. 12-15mm is severe. So what would you say 24mm and 37mm are? I know last week I said they were considering this to be stable, but that was then and this is now. Dr. Goodnight said that he was going to consult with Dr. Elton, the neurosurgeon. He just can't explain why, after 5 1/2 weeks post surgery, that his vents are not reducing. He says this is not normal, they are extraordinarily large. He also wants us to go ahead and prepare ourselves that Rayden will have to have a shunt within days of birth. This is brain surgery on an infant!! The main reason we did the fetal surgery was to prevent this. Now, they are telling us it's not working and he's going to have brain surgery? Why, why, why is this happening? I'm doing exactly what he said do...nothing!! I just don't understand.... This is so depressing and down hearting to us.

I am trying to draw strength from scripture and prayer, but it's really hard when you are the one walking this path.

Next doctor's visit is Nov. 26.

November 11, 2014 "27 week ultrasound"

Today was our third post-op ultrasound visit. We were so looking forward to seeing Rayden today. I just knew he was not going to be breech anymore because of the way we felt him move this week. One morning he moved all over my belly for more than 5 minutes straight! No, I'm not exaggerating. It was amazing. I also KNOW he has gained weight. Who couldn't have with all this wonderful food that keeps coming into my house, haha! I have put on 7 pounds myself!

Results: Rayden was sitting criss-cross applesauce. He is still considered breech, but NOT frank breech! His feet are no longer over his head. He would not move his hands away from his face so she couldn't get a good picture today. He's getting shy. He got 8 out of 8 points again. The ultrasound technician, Mercy, was able to see his scar a little bit. She mentioned seeing some stitches, but she couldn't see much because of the way he was sitting. His heart beat was 155 bpm. He now weighs 2 lbs 15 oz. I told you he gained weight! This puts him within the 70th percentile for his gestational age.

But, yes, his ventricles did grow. His right ventricle grew from 33mm to 36mm. His left ventricle grew from 20mm to 23mm. Both rising only 3mm each. They are considering this to be stable though because they are growing proportionately with his size and weight and not so rapidly now. Although it would be really nice for his vents to start reducing in size, I am still praising God for this milestone.

Rayden is doing so well and we could not be more proud or thankful. We are trying to praise God through this suffering and believe that God has a plan. Justin, my oldest son, directed me to a sermon recently that used this scripture that really hit home to me. Romans 5: 3-5 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Sprit, who has been given to us. I believe God has a plan for Rayden and there is a purpose for this so I am trying to hold on to hope and praise God through this suffering.

Michael thought I was crazy for wanting my picture taken in the ultrasound room, but I think it turned out nicely. It gives you an idea of what I see every week!!! I have also been having a craving for Krispy Kreme doughnuts. After my ultrasound we drove up town and got two dozen!! I am even sporting the cool hat in the picture! Now, next week we will ALL be fatter!! Haha!

Next doctor visit is November 21.

November 4, 2014 Post-Op Doctor Visit #2

Today we went for our 2nd post-op ultrasound/doctor's visit at UNC Chapel Hill. Michael's parents, Glenn and Linda, drove me so he was able to work. This visit took a lot out of me because the chairs were so uncomfortable and there was a lot of walking. I get dizzy when standing up for more than ten minutes and my stomach and back start hurting. I felt every single bump in the road on the way back. What a long day.

I enjoyed our ultrasound technician, Denise. She was so funny and explained everything so thoroughly to Linda because we told her that this was 'Nanny's' first ultrasound visit. She even gave her some photos of her very own.

Results: Good news: Rayden received all 8 possible points today! He got 2 points each for tone, movement, breathing and amniotic fluid. He breathed for more than 30 seconds. It reminded me of a child that had been crying for a while and had the 'snubs'. He moved a lot and had the hiccups again.
              Not so good news: His left ventricle grew from 18mm to 20mm. His right ventricle grew from 28mm to 33mm. He is also still in frank breech position (feet above the head).

If you look at the diagram you will see the difference in a normal ventricle and one with myelomeningocele. This build up of Cerebrospinal Fluid (CSF) compresses the brain which is what the fetal surgery was suppose to reduce decreasing the need for a shunt.

We are suppose to be happy about his ventricles not growing so RAPIDLY this time. Maybe next week they will stabilize and then start reducing in size. I am still upset about him being frank breech because I know this may cause him to have extra therapy when he's born. But, here again, his feet were not as high over his head this time so maybe he is starting to stretch himself out. Yes, I am trying to stay positive.

Dr. Goodnight said I was doing well. I'm still taking loads of medication and staring at four walls! I have created a spreadsheet to record my medicine and my phone alarm rings to remind me to take it. I'm sleeping well and eating VERY well thanks to my wonderful church family!! LCC is the BEST!!!!!!

On a lighter note Sunday, Nov. 2, Alex felt Rayden move. His eyes lit up when he kicked and it just melted my heart that he was able to feel his baby brother for the first time.

Next ultrasound is Nov. 11.

October 27, 2014 Post-Op Doctor Visit #1

My niece, Pamela, has been staying with me during the day. She has been a life safer-cleaning, washing clothes, fixing my lunch, just keeping me company. My friend, Dina, stayed one day as well. I've enjoyed all the visits from family, church members, and friends. You have no idea how your visits have uplifted me.

Today we had our first post-op ultrasound. We were so looking forward to seeing little Rayden. Although it was tough to walk to the office I did enjoy the sunshine. The ultrasound technician, Stephen, took us back and allowed me to walk real slow. He was very nice. He tried everything he could to see the baby's face and measure his length, but Rayden was not cooperating. He had his feet above his head! No lie, I thought, "He's going to be a Yoga expert!" His knees were squished into his little nose. The technician kept poking and shaking and finally asked me to roll over to my side. Rayden pushed his knee over with his hand and smiled. It melted our hearts! Then he pulled that knee back and snuggled up to it like a pillow. The technician said he had plenty of fluid and room in there. Some babies just like to be cuddled up. The technician continued on and looked for the other things he needed. He said Rayden met 6 out of 8 possible markers. He received all points except the 2 points for breathing, but he's really too young for that anyway. So I thought that was great. He couldn't see his lesion due to the way he was positioned and he had a hard time measuring the ventricles in his brain for fluid. He finally did tell us that they have grown. Before the surgery they were 16mm. Now one side is 18mm. and the other side is 28mm!! Almost doubled!! We were very upset. Dr. Goodnight said he didn't really know what to think of that. He said the surgery normally reduces the size of the ventricles. He thought it would have at least stabilized by now. If HE doesn't know what to think of it, what should WE think? They said Rayden was eating. He even got the hiccups during the ultrasound! So cute.

I know it's a little blurry but you can see Rayden's little face. That cute little pug nose and those chubby cheeks! Use your imagination and you can see his foot beside his face. 

Dr. Goodnight said I was doing great. He liked the looks of my incision and the chart I made to record all my medication. He told me to continue to do absolutely nothing!! He said he wanted me so bored that I was doing next year's lesson plans! Now, all my teacher friends know how bored I must become, haha! Today I've kept busy by writing Thank You cards and updating my blog. 

Instead of going back to Rex next week, he wants me to travel to UNC Chapel Hill. So, Tuesday, Nov. 4, is my next appointment. I pray that Rayden has stretched back out. I hate seeing him like that. I pray even harder that his ventricles have reduced in size tremendously. 

On a lighter note, I finally got my body pillow. This thing is amazing. It replaced all 6 pillows I had on my bed. The support it give my stomach, back, and legs is awesome. I love it! 

October 19, 2014 First Day Home

It has felt so good to be home although my first night sleeping in my own bed was miserable. I couldn't roll over and I didn't want to wake Michael to ask for pillows to put behind my back. I felt like he had taken such good care of me that he deserved to sleep. About 4:00, medicine time, I was so miserable that I had to wake him. He got me six pillows, one for each side of my body, one under each knee, one for my stomach and one for my head. I felt so much better. You wouldn't believe how hard it is just to roll over when you've been cut down the middle of your body!! The pain is almost unbearable. Its funny how many stomach muscles you use just to hold yourself on your side as well. I'm going to order a body pillow tomorrow!

Today is our 23rd Wedding Anniversary. I knew it was coming so before I went into the hospital I bought the sweetest card I could find, wrote a loving note and stashed it under the alarm clock. This morning I asked Michael to get it out. He was so moved that I remembered even after everything was going on. He went to the store to purchase some items for dinner and brought back a tasty dessert. How thoughtful.

Michael's parents, my parents, my son and his girlfriend, my sister, niece, brother-in-law, and dear friends- Barbara and Gerome have come over to see us. My church family has begun bringing us supper each night. I can taste their love in every single bite. My niece, Pamela, has been staying with me during the day so Michael can work. Words cannot express how thankful I am for each and every person that has come by, sent a card, called, text, emailed, said a prayer or even just read my blog. The support I feel is unbelievable and I can't wait for Rayden to meet you all.  

Oct. 21-Maya called today to see how I was doing. She seemed impressed by our progress. She also reminded me that our first post-op doctors appointment is scheduled for Monday, Oct. 27. Can't wait to see Rayden again. 

October 15-18, 2014 Post-Op

The past few days have been filled with every emotion possible.

Pain-They took out a lot of IV's, wires, and pipes, and disconnected me from some of the machines. I had so many holes in my hands they looked like pin cushions. They moved me to another room on another floor. I was really scared to move and it hurt so bad. When I arrived in my new room I was complaining so bad that the nurse gave me a shot of morphine. I think I died because I didn't know anything for over an hour. It actually felt nice to sleep.

Frustration-It took them 2 1/2 days to take out the epidural! This was a little depressing and funny at the same time. I couldn't feel my legs and that is such a strange feeling. The nurses had to rotate me every two hours so I didn't get bed soars. Talk about feeling paralyzed!! I couldn't even move my toes. Alex got the biggest laugh out of it. He would ask me to move my toes and I would make the funniest face trying with no results.

Embarrassment-I still had the epidural and catheter, so I was not able to get up or even move. During this time they were giving me Milk of Magnesia. Must I continue? I couldn't feel anything from my waste down. I don't know why they were trying to make my bowels move when I couldn't get up. Seems like they just asked for that one. I was super embarrassed.

Miserable- After surgery you have a lot of air pockets in your stomach. Although they continued to give me Gas-X. It just felt like a Civil War was going on in there. If you've ever felt it, you know how miserable this can be.

Overjoyed-When they finally took out the epidural and catheter it took a couple of hours, but I finally began to feel like a real person again. Scared of the pain awaiting me, but excited that I could use the bathroom on my own.

Brave- Getting up to walk out of the room was so scary, but I knew that I would never get any better if I didn't move around. The first night I only walked 1 1/2 laps around the nurses station. The second day I walked 2 entire laps that morning and 3 that evening. The third day I walked a total of 11 laps. They were calling me a rock star!

Love-I can't even begin to say how much my husband expressed his love for me during this time. He got me anything I wanted; drink, food, blankets, medicine, pillows, ice, etc. He waited on me hand and foot. He ordered my food. He fed me when I would fall asleep feeding myself. He cleaned me up and sponge bathed me after my accident, and shower bathed me when I could get in and sit down. He washed my hair, brushed it and put it up in a pony tail. He dressed me and walked with me every step down the hall. He pushed me in a wheelchair down the hall just to get some air and put a smile on my face. I couldn't have asked for a better man to share this journey with.

Comfort- Alex, Linda, Glenn, and Justin were there every day to visit us. My mother, father, sister and niece came a couple times. Our dear friend, Gerome, and our pastor, the Williamson Family, visited as well. So many others called or text daily to check on me. What an outpouring of love.

Happy- Rayden has had three ultrasounds each showing great results. The amniotic fluid is filling back up. He is eating and moving. He really is a trooper. This hasn't seemed to bother him at all. I'm the one having such a hard time. I'm so happy he is not affected and hopefully isn't feeling any pain.

Inspired- I was told there was another patient that had the same surgery the exact day as me who was in the hospital as well. I asked if I could meet her and we could support each other. It took us a couple of days to feel well enough to meet, but we finally got the strength to do so. She is having a boy as well. Their names are going to be similar. It was amazing to hear her story, so familiar to mine. Our due dates are close as well, so hopefully we will be able to stay in touch.

Excitement- When they said I could go home if I wanted, I was overjoyed. I was still in a lot of pain, but I knew I would have plenty of support at home and I would heal faster in my own environment. Michael started packing so fast. I think he was more excited than me. Yes, the ride home was a little long and painful, but entering my own house made it all worth it.

Alex entertaining us with a glove!

October 14, 2014 BUTT DAY

Rayden's "Butt Day" 

(10-14-14 is Rayden's Butt Day-not Birthday, because this is the day his 'butt' sees the world. Haha!)

After a sleepless night of praying for baby Rayden, we arrived at UNC at 9:00. They took us directly back to a room and started an IV. Of course it took three people to get the IV. One of them blew up like a balloon under my skin. Several people came to see me and introduce themselves. They were all so excited about the opportunity to view such a rare surgery. Michael, Justin, Alex and myself waited for a few hours until they came to take me down. I was so nervous. They wheeled me past the rest of my family but Michael, Justin, and Alex were able to come with me downstairs. When Maya told them this was the end of the line I remember looking up to a family full of tears. All my grown, strong men were crying. I think they were scared as well. I entered a large hallway that had curtains on both sides. They wheeled me into one of these rooms and shut the curtain. I spoke with two medical students that were so excited to be able to view my surgery. I really didn't feel like entertaining them. I was so nervous. Dr. Goodnight came in and told me that it would be another 30 minutes because they were cleaning the Operating Room. He told the nurse to allow my husband to come back to sit with me. Soon Michael, Justin, and Alex were in the room keeping me company.

Dr. Elton came to speak with us before the surgery along with many other team members. Soon a nurse put a funny blue hat on my head and an anesthesiologist asked me to drink a mixture in a little brown cup. He stated that it tasted like salty sweet tarts. It was nasty but I was amazed that he had the best description possible for the taste. They took my glasses and wheeled me into the OR. All I could see was a bunch of people in green suits. They reminded me of aliens. They asked me to sit on a cold, metal table. One man was holding my hands and the other man behind me started placing the epidural in my back. I actually couldn't feel a thing. After lying down on a yellow doughnut shaped jello pillow a lady asked if I had hair ties in my hair. I stated I had two of them. I lifted my head for her to remove them and that's all I remember. I didn't count to 10. I didn't have a sleeping mask. That was it. The doctors called Michael every hour on his cell phone to keep him informed of our progress. I woke up hours later back in the room upstairs with hundreds of people around my bed. Wires, needles, pipes, monitors of all sorts coming from my body in every place you could imagine. I remember not even being able to open my eyes or pick up my fingers! I remember being in so much pain and crying-begging Dr. Goodnight not to leave me. I heard him say, "Fix this." and that was it. I passed out again. I know people came to see me, but I couldn't tell you who they were. The remainder of that night was excruciating. The magnesium sulfate I was on to stop the contractions made me so hot and sick. I couldn't make full sentences. I would just say words like "hot", "sick", "legs", "shaking". My son, Alex, rubbed my feet. I know its weird that I say that felt good when I had an epidural block and couldn't really feel my feet or legs, but it DID feel good. Michael and Alex would pick up my legs, give me a throw up pan, pull the covers off, wash my face, give me ice, cover me back up, and hold me down to help me stop shaking. This was a continuous process all night long. I remember saying, "baby...moving". Everyone thought that was so wonderful. It HURT so I wanted him to stop. Dr. Elton said the babies surgery was "textbook". He was a trooper and did wonderful. I suppose he was doing great considering he was already moving just a little while after surgery. I thought I was dying, no lie! I'm not going to sugar coat it. It was the toughest thing I have ever gone through. I'm so thankful my family was there to help me through each contraction and push me through. I know God was there helping me stay sedated as much as possible. I could feel all the prayers being lifted up. I would do it all again to help my sweet, innocent, little baby.

Graphic pictures of our surgery

In the picture above you can see my uterus has been taken OUT of my body, and cut open. 

Inside you see a bubble on Rayden's back. This is his myelomeningocele. 

The picture above shows the defect in his back after the bubble has burst. 

Above you see his little spinal chord exposed and the surgeons starting to stitch his 

skin back together covering the defect. 

Look closely and you will see Rayden's back all stitched up inside my uterus. 

Now to sew me back up. 

My uterus getting sewn back together. Now to place it all back inside my body. 

All of this just amazes me. The knowledge God has given these surgeons just testifies of his power. I KNOW God has big plans for Rayden and we feel so blessed to be chosen as his parents. 

October 13, 2014 Pre-Op

We went for our pre-op appointment today. First stop was the ultrasound. We were very excited to see Rayden again. I couldn't wait to see if all this movement was coming from his legs or just his arms. The ultrasound technician was too worried about other things while he WAS moving to see if he was moving his legs or not. When she finally decided to watch a bit, he stopped moving. Of course! She did say that he weighed 1lb, 6 oz., which is good for his age. He is within the 58th percentile for his gestational age. But she said the fluid in his brain has now increased from 13mm to 16mm. I was very upset about this. She also showed us that both feet are clubbed. Maya took us upstairs to Labor and Delivery where we got checked in and waited for everyone else to come see us. They took my blood and vital signs. We spoke with an anesthesiologist, Dr. Goodnight's associate, and Dr. Elton's associate. There were a lot papers to sign. They are still going ahead with the surgery tomorrow even though his ventricles measured 16mm. I suppose that's good. We must be there at 9 am. Surgery is scheduled for 12:00 noon. We checked into a motel for the night because the Ronald McDonald house is having a mold problem so they are only using half of their building. They were full but at least we got a discounted rate at the motel. After eating a large meal at the Outback Steakhouse we are settling in to hopefully get a good nights rest. I know that God is in control but it is still hard not to worry. 

October 10 Last day of work

I'm so thankful that I've been able to return to work these past few weeks. Although my heart has been heavy at least work kept my mind occupied. Today was my last day. I knew it was going to be hard to tell my students goodbye but I hadn't expected to cry the entire day! Former students came to see me as well. So heartwarming. My dear friend, Anne, made everyone yellow ribbons in honor of Spina Bifida Awareness Month. The entire staff wore them in our honor. At the end of the day my coworkers planned a devotional time. They gathered around me and read two scriptures and three people prayed while hands were held or on me. Yes, I said prayed in school! (Although it was really AFTER school) Ms. Howard, our principal, presented me with a love offering they had been taking up these past few weeks. I didn't look down to see that she had written an amount on the outside of the envelope. I was too busy hugging everyone and thanking them for their prayers. As I gathered my things to leave I placed the envelope in my bag. I noticed the amount on the outside. WOW! I just cried again. The staff at CES are truly the best!! They have been donating leave days to me so that I could continue to get paid. I thought that was more than generous, but to see the amount on the outside of that envelope... I can't begin to say how blessed and loved I feel. I thank God for each and every one of them and for placing me at a school of believers.

September 22, 2014 Baby Named

It felt weird actually getting dressed, putting on makeup, fixing my hair, and driving a car because I had not done any of these things in 11 days! I contacted Maya at UNC to inform her that we had made a decision so she got the ball rolling and cancelled the termination. In a few days she contacted me and scheduled the surgery for Oct. 14. Michael and I decided we had better give this baby a name. After nights of debating we finally decided that his name would be Rayden Trace Bradley. Ray is Michael's middle name and Trace kinda sounds like my name, Teresa. Trace (tres) is also the number 3 in Spanish. No, we are not Hispanic, but we thought it was neat seeing as he will be our third child.

Sept. 27-Michael, Gerome, Glenn and I painted the baby's room. We are doing all kinds of things to prepare as much as possible for Rayden's arrival.

I know everyone has been praying for us and we can feel it. I want to thank everyone for their kind words, comments, cards, phone calls, emails, texts, food, etc. You all have no idea how much we feel your love and appreciate every one of you. 

This is Rayden's story, and my plan is to just take it page by page. Some chapters might be harder than others, but there will never be another book like his.

September 19, 2014 Our answer revealed

Today I am dying inside because I have to call Erin Eaton at Rex to tell her to go ahead and schedule the termination. Even though I knew we could still cancel the appointment, it absolutely killed me just to call and schedule it. Throughout the entire day I did a lot of soul searching and praying, waiting for God to give us the answer. As I scrolled through the internet like I had been doing every single day, I came across a song that I had never heard before. This was an artist that I had never even heard of as well. Somehow it showed up on my ipad and I listened to it. Music speaks to me more than anything else so I listened. The first sentence as well as the chorus spoke volumes to me. I knew we could not terminate this life. 

Little did I know that Michael had received a daily devotion from a friend that he receives every morning that had been tugging on his heart all day as well. When he returned home from work he shared the devotion with me. John 11.4. "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it." He didn't read anymore of the devotion. This one line spoke to him. We discussed everything and decided at about 11:00 pm that we would not terminate this life, but leave it in God's hands.

This is a journey that we will embark together. Wherever it leads, at least we know that we struggled greatly, prayed diligently and did not make this decision lightly, and we would travel this journey together.

Sept. 20-Although I had been feeling the baby move for two weeks now, Michael had not felt him at all. We were lying in bed after a night of great sleep, the first one in weeks, now that this burden of decision had been lifted. The baby started moving so much. I grabbed Michael's hand and placed it in the spot I had felt the baby move. It took a while, but I knew the second he felt him. He jumped and asked, "Is that him?" I almost started crying from the instant joy I felt knowing that Michael could finally feel our son. It felt like a reassurance that we had made the right decision.

We were thrilled to share with everyone the decision that we had made. I thought I could even go back to work for a while until the surgery is scheduled. Maybe life will be a little close to normal for a little while.

September 18, 2014 Multiple consults with the 'team' at UNC Chapel Hill

We arrived at UNC Chapel Hill at 11:00. Maya was our 'tour guide' for the day.
*We met with Dr. Alexander from the Spina Bifida clinic via skype. That was interesting. I took my book full of questions and he answered every one. He specifically told us that he believed our baby would be able to walk with braces and not be constrained to a wheel chair. He also told us to raise him just like we did our other boys. Not to baby him or cater to his disabilities.
*Dr. Elton, the Neurosurgeon, told us that he was 99.9% sure our baby does not have any brain damage right now. I asked him to say it over and over three times as I broke down in tears. He informed us of his part of the surgery and it is just amazing what all they can do.
*Dr. Ross, the Urologist, informed us of so many different ways they could help children living with bladder/bowel dis-function. She even said the baby may or may not have sensation to be able to urinate. So many positive comments just reassures us that maybe it's not as bad as it could be.
*Dr. Laughon, the Neonatologist, informed us of the procedures in the NICU and when they would and would not resuscitate.
*Dr. Smith, the Anesthesiologist, gave us her perspective on what they would be doing to take care of me and the baby during surgery. She listened to my heart and found I had a slight heart murmur. I've never heard anyone say that to me before so this was surprising.
*We visited the NICU, Labor and Delivery and the cafe.
We left around 4:00. Such a long day full of so much information. They really wanted us to try and make a decision by Friday.

September 12, 2014 Broken Heart

Sept. 12-Although it was Michael's birthday, we couldn't celebrate anything. We haven't slept in 2 nights and all we could do was cry and ask why. Friends, family and church members started coming over and bringing food. Glenn went to SC to pick up Linda. Michael's brother, Jeffery, drove up from Alabama to be with us. We didn't know he was coming and fell to pieces when he walked in. It meant a lot to us. All our friends and family have been so supportive but no one can tell us what to do.

Sept. 13-We had a family meeting to discuss things. I wanted to make sure everyone understood the severity of what was happening and what the doctors were asking us to do. Alex sat beside me with his head on my shoulder the entire meeting. Yes, the decision is ultimately up to me and Michael, but the burden will be carried by our entire family. No one told us what to do, but all said they would stand behind us whatever decision we made.

Sept. 14-Michael has been dealing with this by keeping busy. He had mowed the grass and started painting the bathroom. I haven't eaten much or slept any in 4 nights. We called UNC to get some sleeping medication before I had a total breakdown. After taking the medicine I slept for 4 hours. Michael has been such a rock. He has picked me up off the floor from a total, complete melt down in the baby's room, held the trash while I threw up from crying so hard, carried me to the couch when I passed out from exhaustion and held me tight all night just to make me feel safe. I love him more now than ever before.

Sept. 15-Maya Lindley, Perinatal Care Specialist from UNC Chapel Hill, called to tell me that the appointments with the 'team' would be Sept. 18. I started researching and writing down any and all questions we had. The rest of this week was filled with internet research, praying, crying, and talking. We met with Pastor Williamson, and Pastor Warren. I skyped and spoke on the phone with parents of children of spina bifida. I spoke with a mother who had terminated and two who chose life. I also joined a Facebook group of mothers who had the fetal surgery. It meant so much to be able to speak with so many families. These parents and children are so strong. We just had so many questions...

They say the darkest part is always right before the dawn. Well, I'm holding on by a thread and I'm about to fall off!! Where is the dawn? God, if you can send a burning bush to Moses, give a boy the strength to defeat Goliath, raise the dead bones of Lazarus, and feed five-thousand with a couple fish and a loaf of bread, then why, why, why won't you heal this baby, or just take it from us???? My heart is in 1,000 pieces, maybe even more!! This song explains how I feel.

If you are on a mobile device or cannot view the youtube video below please click the link:    http://youtu.be/cH16B5449Iw 
Or just search for Broken Hallelujah by Mandisa.

September 11, 2014 More Bad News

We arrived at 9:00. I remember that I couldn't even tell the receptionist my name through the tears. Another receptionist knew what was going on and just told me to take a seat. Soon Erin Eaton, the genetic counselor, came out to get us. She took us into a small room to talk about the events from yesterday. I had read the pamphlets and found out that there were 3 kinds of Spina Bifida. Occulta, meningocele,and myelomeningocele. I thought for sure our baby wasn't that bad. She stopped me before I could get any hopes up and informed us that they had diagnosed the worst kind, myelomeningocele. I fell all to pieces so she left the room for a moment. She returned and took us to another room to talk with Dr. Goodnight. He informed us of the defect we were facing. Our baby had an L4 lesion, 12-13mm. of cerebrospinal fluid on his brain, and clubbed feet. He would probably have to walk with braces up to his knees, have no bladder or bowel control/function, and possible brain damage. He was so patient and kind with us that day. He took it real slow showing/informing us of the defect and how they could possibly treat it with utero surgery. He even gave us a couple of breaks. I remember going through 2 entire boxes of tissues. He answered our questions every time, even if we asked the same thing over and over. He had a power point presentation to help guide the discussion. He said that in the state of NC we could terminate a pregnancy as far as 20 weeks 6 days but no farther. I was already 18 1/2 so we didn't have much time to make a decision. After hours of conversation, he stated that if we wanted to do the surgery we were perfect candidates. But he would have to do an amniocentesis before the surgery to look for other abnormalities. We decided to do the amnio that day. Dr. Goodnight took us to another room where there was another ultrasound technician. He was so kind and understanding. He allowed us to see the baby in 3D and even gave us pictures, and a DVD of the ultrasound. We could see the baby moving and kicking. Yes, he was kicking! I got so excited, but Dr. Goodnight told us not to get excited because what he does in utero is not the same as being out of the womb. Dr. Goodnight performed the amnio himself. He informed me every step of the way. It hurt so bad, but I would gladly do it 100 times to trade it for the upcoming days. Dr. Goodnight and Erin want us to go to UNC Chapel Hill to talk to the 'team' of surgeons before we make a final decision. We left the office about 3:30. I called my youngest son, Alex, on the way home to inform him of the news. He was so quite on the phone.

This is so hard! How could this be? Why is this happening? What did I do wrong? Could I have changed this? Will our baby ever walk? Will he live? Will he live a normal life? Is this some kind of punishment? I want answers.... God, why?

September 10, 2014 "18 week ultrasound"

 Sept. 6- I thought I felt the baby today. It felt as if I was going down a hill real fast, like a bubble in the pit of my stomach. I hope that's him, because I haven't felt him at all and I have been worried.

Sept. 10-Our 18 week 3D anatomy ultrasound is scheduled for today. We have been so excited. We couldn't wait to finally see the baby again. We even had a dinner planned with our oldest son, who lives in Raleigh, after the appointment. Everything was going great with the ultrasound. She even said his heart looked great, which is the only thing I thought we had to worry about after the blood test came back normal. After viewing the ultrasound for almost half an hour, I asked the technician why it wasn't in 3D. She stated that it just wasn't cooperating. I didn't really understand what she meant. I just continued to enjoy the black and white view of our little fellow. After an hour, the technician said she was finished. She gave us some pictures and said she would go get the doctor. Michael and I were overjoyed that the baby seemed fine.

Our World Crashes Down

The doctor came in and sat down with a somber face. He stated that he was going to get right to the point. I said, "please do." I thought he was going to say, 'you're having a boy so buckle up.' That's not at all what he said. He stated that they saw something wrong with the baby. I was in shock. What was he talking about? The ultrasound technician hadn't said a word. He stated they saw signs of Spina Bifida. I looked so puzzled I know. He asked if I knew what that was. To tell you the truth, I really didn't. He started saying that the baby has a defect with his spine and there was fluid on his brain. He stated that the baby had clubbed feet, he wasn't moving his legs, and he just kept going on and on. I remember bursting into tears and grabbing Michael's hand as I thought I was going to pass out. They gave me a box of tissues and I didn't know what to do! I remember asking him if he was sure. He said he was 100% sure. If he had any doubt he would send me somewhere else. They brought in another ultrasound technician to look again. They wanted her to see where the lesion was located. They brought in a grief counselor that gave us books and pamphlets. Everything seemed like a dream. I remember the ultrasound technician counting to 5. I didn't know what that meant at the time. The doctor stated that we had to come back tomorrow morning to see Dr. Goodnight because he was the specialist in this area. He said we had 3 options. 1-Terminate, 2-Fetal Surgery, 3-Have the baby and see.

We left the office in such a blur that I don't even know how we got to the car. Michael and I didn't really know what to do, where to go, who to tell or anything! We decided that we had better go on to Justin's apartment because he was waiting for us. We cancelled our dinner plans but we did tell Justin what was going on. Michael drove us to his parents house to tell his Dad. I called my best friend, and teacher assistant, Barbara to tell her that I wouldn't be at school tomorrow and what was going on. Then we came home. I remember crying trying to read the pamphlets we received from the grief counselor. We never ate dinner. We just went to bed to hold each other and cry all night long.

August 8, 2014 Gender Reveal

This is the day we were moving our oldest son, Justin, to Raleigh to attend Campbell Law School. Just before we left the genetic counselor called to reveal the test results. Michael joined me in the car as I spoke with her. She stated that she had good news. The test revealed no chromosomal abnormalities. It also revealed the gender of the baby. Michael and I were excited that the baby was healthy and were glad to tell others this good news, but decided NOT to reveal the gender to anyone yet. Of course everyone was upset about that. August 9- Michael and I had such a great time baking and decorating the big reveal cake. Everyone started calling or texting us to try to get a sneak peak. August 10- We had a Gender Reveal Party. It was so much fun cutting the cake as everyone watched with anticipation. What excitement filled the room when the BLUE cake was revealed.

 

It's a boy!! 

July 30, 2014 Rex

Our visit to UNC Maternal-Fetal Medicine at Rex for a prenatal genetic counseling and high risk consultation was interesting. We met with Dr. Goodnight for about 45 minutes. He discussed all the different tests they could perform from blood work to amniocentesis. Michael and I decided to do the Harmony blood test because it was less invasive than an amnio. It would even tell us the gender of the baby! In order to do the test Dr. Goodnight said he must first perform an ultrasound to look for abnormalities in the babies neck. Oh boy! Another ultrasound! Michael and I enjoyed seeing the baby flip around and around. He/she was so active. Dr. Goodnight stated that all looked good and they didn't even see any signs of a fibroid cyst. Things were looking up all the time.

Now we just have to wait for the genetic counselor to call us back with the test results. Of course, with two boys we are really hoping for a girl. But we are praying for a healthy baby more than anything else. We came home and I went to tell our church family the news. 

July 17, 2014 Initial prenatal visit

I went to Dr. Grays office for an initial prenatal visit. Although he did a little ultrasound July 7th, he could not seem to find it in his computer. He had to do another ultrasound, which was fine with me.
 

                                       

All seemed fine, but he was concerned about a fibroid cyst he found in my uterus. My age, 41, and B12 deficiency, were also cause for alarm. So, Dr. Gray decided we might need to go to Rex to have some genetic testing done. Yes, I was a little nervous so I started researching genetic testing on the Internet. We decided it was time to tell the rest of the family. Michael's mother, Linda, was in SC helping take care of her sister so we traveled there to tell her and Glenn together on July 19. We drove on down to Alabama to tell Michael's brother, Jeffery, as well. I also visited my side of the family that weekend. July 27- we had dinner with our best friends to tell them the news. Everyone seemed so excited and happy. I was still in shock I believe. This certainly wasn't what we thought empty nest syndrome would look like!